So I have not fallen off the wagon but I have been kind of a weird stand still send the refridgerator death drama. But it goes worse than that. I went to the dentist and before she would do work she took my blood pressure and it was high. She refused to do the work on my teeth and freaked me out. I thought well maybe its because I am stressed at the dentist. So I got a monitor and took my bp first thing in the morning and I was worried about it for days I confess. It was very high. I took a tranquilizer and decided it take it again. It was even higher. I contacted the doctor and it was borderline while I was there so they prescribed low dose blood pressure medication. This pisses me off. I have been trying to get my health on track and apparently doing a shitty job. I have been taking the medication and feeling slightly better. The pressure in my head was bad, and I had a headache probably due to the nonstop state of worrying that it put me in. What a mess. So I am switching what I am doing. I am starting low impact cardio and weight lifting. I am also trying to eat more veggies and potassium. I really need to get myself on track; even if I am doing 10 minute work outs. I still want to lose the 20 lbs. So how the eff do I do this? I need to tighten up what I am eating. Try to focus on lower calorie and thankful that I have medication to help me through this.

Dear diary, could underlying health problems cause high blood pressure? Hereditary? Stress? All of the above? So after a recent visit to the dentist I found out my blood pressure is on the high side. So I am taking steps to try to combat it. I don’t drink coffee anymore. I can think of when I noticed it started bothering me; it was around the death of the fridge or the AC unit. Maybe just the compile of all things? I am not sure how to handle this. I have ideas other than medication I might be totally wrong on this. I am thinking I should talk to a doctor about it. I am consider the dash diet. I considered myself a healthy eater probably because I have been on the wagon since September. I have wondered if its teas I am drinking. Or something else. But I am switching things up and carefully monitoring. I am going to call the doc and discuss this with them as well. I was very nervous to take my first reading and it was HIGH because I was stressing big time. I took a tranquilizer, did am Yoga stretches. Been working on mobility stretches and thinking of bringing the exercise bike up here. Maybe just do step today. If there is anyone who will try to resuscitate me it will be Sarah the girl is tough as nails.

Yesterday I had too much caffeine and it went right through me in a horrible way but I knew what that meant the scale would be down today and tomorrow it will probably be back up. So its interesting to me I took a break from shakeo and I started drinking it again and I am enjoying it and its not bugging my stomach. I think the truth will be tomorrow to see if I am up from not going to the bathroom today because I went big time yesterday. LOL I know its tmi. Just interesting to me how it all works. I will be happy if I am legit finally under 160 but I would be shocked if it sticks.

So its interesting to me. In the past I have lost weight by being super stringent with how I roll. I drive myself crazy and I am hyper focused. I write posts about it and its slow and tedious. Last week I didn’t workout much but I stayed within calories and the broken fridge def threw off my pattern. This week I was back in recording calories but def went over on days. I started exercising again not doing anything over the top just a thirty minute walk each day that I am working. And I have to tell you it was a week of hungry horrors. But I went from 162 to 160 since thanksgiving. I am not done by any means but I wonder if I can do this without being hyper stringent and ocd. I feel like I am still enjoying foods getting diverse options without being so hard on myself. For example I was being so stringent with the calories and the scale was barely moving, I actually hit a plateau. Now I have been watching but been going over and eating some stuff here and there. Like I am feeling like maybe I need to rethink my how. I am going for a walkt his morning.