I am back trying to get my diet and health under control. I am trying a new path and I know I won’t see results fast. I am counting calories and including stuff I really enjoy. Trying to get up and do more. I know the scale won’t move much. I want to long term lost 24 pounds. 34 would be ideal but I haven’t seen that weight for about 15 years. So here I am feeling pretty good. I had some crappy choices today but I don’t care! I ate portion sized and didn’t go nuts. I am full. My day is coming to a close.

Last August I injured my knee and it still hurts. I have been trying to stretch and do exercises to improve range of motion and hopefully decrease pain eventually. I started back with doing step. I am keeping a calendar. I am taking the workouts slow and careful. And not doing over 15 minutes yet. So I feel pretty good about it. Back to the grind now.

I bought a pair of camo cargo pants a few years ago and they were on the tight side, then I gained weight, and they didn’t fit anymore. I lost weight and they fit me amazingly for a hot second. The past five years have been hard, because life is like that. Today I decided to try to fit into the pants. I could not get them over my butt. I am aware that I am at a weight that I don’t want to be at. I am aware that I want to lose weight. But I have been wearing exercise pants for about three years and my weight has steadily increased. Everyday I wear them with the intention of working out and instead they are my eating pants? LOL. Seriously, I had weighed myself at the start of last week and started to put my weight and fitness on the front burner.

Today we went to the playground and I climbed on some of the equipment and realized how frail and unfit I am. I lack balance due to inner ear issues, but I am not getting any younger. This fragile state is only going to get worse. So with that said my fitness and my pants fitting is a goal for me. For the next six months I plan on working getting myself into better shape and trim down. The goal would be to fit into the favorite pants but to lose twenty pounds would also be nice but what if losing weight was yes a goal but the primary goal is fitness with a side of yes I will lose weight but fitness. So today is the day I will do step right now. Yes it’s 8 and I feel like I might have a cold coming on but I am diving into both sides.

Weigh in: 164 lbs.

Goal: 140 lbs.

In an attempt to clear my depression fog and get back on track with fitness by taking it slow and ease into regular exercise. I started yesterday with doing just a small amount. I did this last time I was able to get on track. I am starting with a simple twenty-minute workout of walking on the treadmill. I am still feeling miserable but at least I have done something towards a goal that is important to me. Taking small steps.