So to explain more of what I was referencing in my weird rant yesterday. I do this thing where I present myself with a ton of decisions/solutions to solve an existing problem then I cannot make a decision due to being paralyzed with analysis. Today is the day where I need to make the call. It’s a good opportunity doing something that is more creative and hope LESS technical!!! But the reality of starting a new job has set in. That’s the worst.

The pros of staying put:

• I am remote
• Paid a lot
• Great benefits
• I am familiar with how things work though I don’t love it

The cons of staying put:

• Company has a strong political leaning
• Going into cloud dev with the worst of the worst
• I don’t like what I do
• I feel in over my head
• mandates with lack of flexibility in terms of certain things due to the political lean

The pros of moving on:

• Can submit paperwrok
• Sounds less technical
• Closer to home for the non remote days

The cons of moving on:

• less money
• less benefits
• needing to start over
• the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t

The pay is much less but its more than I made at my last job. It’s that fear of it being HORRIBLE. It’s kind of funny as less pay I equate to being easier but it might not be easier. They talk about collaboration sessions and stakeholders. Not that I can’t do that but I feel like a wet towel. I literally feel that way at my current job like I bring so little to the role. My boss has beem so supportive and great. This has always been an issue for me.

So I’d be working with a senior person so the weight will be on him. He has been there for 8 years. When I mentioned that it sounded like a good company I waited to see their reaction and he flinched a little. That’s funny. But I like that both of them have been there a long time. There was no mention of dealing with egos. I bet there are idiots because there are always idiots. But I bet there aren’t as much annoying people who suck and can’t clarify.